Love, and pain. What is love? I do not know the exact definition of love, and I don't think that anyone does. But what I do know is that love is wonderful, it's indcredible, it's amazing. It is not painful. A lot of people these days assume that this 'pain' comes with love. When actually this pain they feel comes from fears, doubts, anger, jealousy, insecurities, broken promises, betrayed trusts, suspiscion, etc.
The pain associated with relationships have more to do with fear,
than love.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Hopeless Hopeaholic.
Why? Why is it that everytime I give it my all for someone, I always get left with nothing. Why is it that everytime I feel like I'm winning, I end up losing. Everytime it feels like everything is all good and nothing can stop it, it stops and goes the opposite way. Everytime I feel truly happy and that I'm invincible, I eventually end up feeling so vulnerable and depressed.
I've been told many times before that I'm 'the perfect girl', or 'the best'. But in the end I always get left and they've settled for less.
Idk, I do think that I give second chances way more than I should. And maybe I take way less than I deserve. But I guess I just take what I can get, and all I get is used and abused, bullshit and broken promises. I'm always led to believe that not every guy is the same, and that maybe this time I'll be treated right. I don't know why I take that shit and let it slide. But I guess it's becos I choose to see the better in people. I always have hope, even when I know it's just hopeless. I guess I'm always gonna be 'The Hopeless Hopeaholic'.
I've been told many times before that I'm 'the perfect girl', or 'the best'. But in the end I always get left and they've settled for less.
Idk, I do think that I give second chances way more than I should. And maybe I take way less than I deserve. But I guess I just take what I can get, and all I get is used and abused, bullshit and broken promises. I'm always led to believe that not every guy is the same, and that maybe this time I'll be treated right. I don't know why I take that shit and let it slide. But I guess it's becos I choose to see the better in people. I always have hope, even when I know it's just hopeless. I guess I'm always gonna be 'The Hopeless Hopeaholic'.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
AS YOU CAN TELL,
I really love the color pink, haha ;P
Ouh and burgundy :]
Ugh, it's currently 5:09 am and i'm hella bored so i'm just gonna write about whatever is going on in my mind (if there even is anything). Haha, joke lang. Now that i think about it, i rag on myself alot for fun. Like how i'm short, or a fat face. I'm not too sure why i do it tho. Hmm, oh well. I guess i'm weird liddat ;P
Idk wtf i'm doing up. I'm tired, but i just can't sleep. SDK! Plus i'm always hungry at midnight-ish, so i end up piggin' out late night if i don't find a way to help me sleep. Hmm, can sleep deprivation kill you? If so, then shit i need tah sleep! Lmao. I've been doing this crap soo much already, i probably will die young. Ai sous, haha. *Knock on wood*
Mmmh well, i'm craving some mcdonalds and taco bell right now. Hah i know right? Whatta fat ass ;P Lmao, IDGAF! People assume that i don't really eat much since i'm skinny and short, but you're all wrong! Haha, i can pound pretty choke! Haha. It's just that i have a high/fast metabolism [?] Lol. I eat alooot (trust me), but i never really gain any more weight. Only around like my belly area -___-' Though i wish i would actually gain weight in the right areas. It's haard to find jeans, and clothes in general that actually fit goood :/ *Siiigh* Well hopefully my whackass metabolism goes to normal, if there is such thing?
Speaking of food and alla' that, i'm starting to get hella hungry. Pretty much to the point where i'm starving, haha. So ima go eat, before i die of starvation :P
Kehp, peeeace.
*MUUAH!
Ouh and burgundy :]
Ugh, it's currently 5:09 am and i'm hella bored so i'm just gonna write about whatever is going on in my mind (if there even is anything). Haha, joke lang. Now that i think about it, i rag on myself alot for fun. Like how i'm short, or a fat face. I'm not too sure why i do it tho. Hmm, oh well. I guess i'm weird liddat ;P
Idk wtf i'm doing up. I'm tired, but i just can't sleep. SDK! Plus i'm always hungry at midnight-ish, so i end up piggin' out late night if i don't find a way to help me sleep. Hmm, can sleep deprivation kill you? If so, then shit i need tah sleep! Lmao. I've been doing this crap soo much already, i probably will die young. Ai sous, haha. *Knock on wood*
Mmmh well, i'm craving some mcdonalds and taco bell right now. Hah i know right? Whatta fat ass ;P Lmao, IDGAF! People assume that i don't really eat much since i'm skinny and short, but you're all wrong! Haha, i can pound pretty choke! Haha. It's just that i have a high/fast metabolism [?] Lol. I eat alooot (trust me), but i never really gain any more weight. Only around like my belly area -___-' Though i wish i would actually gain weight in the right areas. It's haard to find jeans, and clothes in general that actually fit goood :/ *Siiigh* Well hopefully my whackass metabolism goes to normal, if there is such thing?
Speaking of food and alla' that, i'm starting to get hella hungry. Pretty much to the point where i'm starving, haha. So ima go eat, before i die of starvation :P
Kehp, peeeace.
*MUUAH!
Friday, July 17, 2009
I AM A BITCH.
Im A Bitch.
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call me a bitch. Being a bitch means that I am free to be the wonderful creature that I am, with all my own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. I am proud to be a bitch! It means I have the courage and strength to allow
myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated, and determined. I want what I want, and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
THAT'S right I am a BITCH
NOTE: I do not take credit for this. The individual who has written this remains anonymous.
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call me a bitch. Being a bitch means that I am free to be the wonderful creature that I am, with all my own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. I am proud to be a bitch! It means I have the courage and strength to allow
myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated, and determined. I want what I want, and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
THAT'S right I am a BITCH
NOTE: I do not take credit for this. The individual who has written this remains anonymous.
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